Freedom Song

oh my.....it was ages i last blogged. struggled for nearly an hour before i successfully log-in. completely forgotten i had a Yahoo mail account!

my mood for writing dissipated! let me regain my sense of being

Anchor in me the freedom song.
The forgiveness and robe of righteousness that YOU gave.
You cause me to remember,
I will cherish and remember, with every breathe that I take.
The blood that washes me clean, whiter than snow.
The blood that quenches the thirst of vengence.
My heart rejoice with joy.
No longer burdened with guilt, cold with indifference, hardened by anger.
By the blood, I overcome.
By the blood, I boldly come and gladly receive.
I set aside my pride and humble myself,
Knowing that YOU alone is enough.
You cause me to sing the freedom song,
With lightness of heart and a spring in my step.
You alone cause flowers to bloom, rain to fall, sun to shine,
Good things to happen to me. Blessings You will surely bless me.
Because of the blood, I am pleasing in your eyes.
Daily you find delight in me and blesses me.
You call me lovely, forever beautiful.
You put a smile on my face, knowing that I am loved.
My heart burning with warmth, wanting to know You more.
Because of the freedom song. I sing. Freely.

Promised Land

Year 2009 flew passed and i only realised i have not blogged for ONE year!!
oh well, this is the first entry of 2010!!

2009 has been a great year and 2010 shall be a even better one...
2010 is a year of Restful Increase

in 2008, i was given a vision
I am fighting cobwebs in darkness
Though i am struggling at times, God still hold me in his hands
God is bringing me to the promised land, flowing with milk and honey

for a long time i was asking what is the promised land
is it a location? a person? an event happening? looking forward to the promised land
I hid what i heard in my heart

Then in 2009 sometime in Oct during one caregroup meeting
I heard someone asking "what is the promised land in today's modern context?"
Another answered "it is REST"

...to be continued. yawnz need to zzz...

Luke 7:41..

41-42"Two men were in debt to a banker. One owed five hundred silver pieces, the other fifty. Neither of them could pay up, and so the banker canceled both debts. Which of the two would be more grateful?"

43-47Simon answered, "I suppose the one who was forgiven the most."
..... She was forgiven many, many sins, and so she is very, very grateful. If the forgiveness is minimal, the gratitude is minimal." (Message)
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41 “There was a certain creditor who had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. 42 And when they had nothing with which to repay, he freely forgave them both. Tell Me, therefore, which of them will love him more?”

43 Simon answered and said, “I suppose the one whom he forgave more.”
47 Therefore I say to you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much. But to whom little is forgiven, the same loves little.” (NKJV)


We love because HE first loved us. But do we realise HOW much we had been forgiven?
Do we still believe that there is any good in and out of ourselves?
Do we think that we can achieve anything with our own efforts, intellect, strength?
Do we dare to believe that HE is that good to forgive ALL of our sins?
Do we have a good opinion of God?
Is HE really ALL loving? or sometimes judges? at times angry? aha the wrath of God!!?

I fell in love with Abba when HE extended His compassion and forgiveness
I knew how bad a person i was
I received His forgiveness when my opinion of Him changed.
I kindda thought he was somewhat angry and disappointed with me. THAT WAS A LIE from the pits of hell OK! ABBA is LOVE and LOVE only!
LOVE NEVER FAILS 1Cor13:8

Love Ya Guys!!

The greatest love of all is easy to receive!
Haha that's what i am (or should be) living for each day.
The greatest love of all keeping me, sustaining me.
Whenever i feel crappy and snappy..
that's an indicator that i am low on love

love me more Lord.love me more Lord.
Show me the length, depth and height of your love towards me!
Give me fresh revelations each day.

Freely i receive, freely i give.

Dear friends who are reading this.
Wanna tell you that i love all of you and you are in my thoughts...
though you may not have heard from me...often, at all,...
You are in my heart. but i gathered that its all counted as nonsense?

Someone told me recently that i do not have empathy!
maybe not enough empathy, not enough love..
Hang on there people. stick with me.
Thank you for being my friend.
Bear with me ok... hahaha i am learning...

______taking the less-travelled road_______

When I have abundance, I tend to lose perspective of simple things in life
maybe the busyness of life had clouded my vision too...

there were two crisis that happened of late.
My beloved papa went to be with Jesus on 4Nov08
And one week prior to that, i fell and fractured my left foot and had to be casted for few weeks

It's been a long time since i had such a long period of idle time at home.
Coupled with my immobility, i had plenty of time to catch up on things that i missed doing..
afternoon naps, music, sermons, reflection, stock take on my relationship with God, stock take on 2008

2008 had been a great year despite all the pain. By God's grace i had grown, though at many times i still don't quite like myself much. i don't love enough, i am not patient enough, i failed too many times... I now understand what it means not to criticise myself. growing up is indeed a struggle and painful process....refined in hot fire. But its all good. I had told God i wanted to learn fast despite the pain. maybe i felt that i had lost much precious time wandering wondering in the wilderness before. The revealation of God's great love had caused me to change my heart. God knows how much tears i had shed during the times of trials....and i still want to stick to growing up fast. Haiz...and His grace is sufficient to guide me through.

Simplicity Humility and Contentment...some things i had been reminded to meditate on during my times of reflections
The wonders of God's creation.... the smell of rain, the smell of fresh crisp air, the white fluffy clouds, the feel of wind caressing my cheeks, the warmth of sunlight, the swaying trees, the beautiful rainbow, a child smiling, a baby chuckling, an extra piece of roast pork! the list goes on...
I indeed have adundance in Singapore compared to in Melb.....family, more friends, more money, more many things.. but... i became less grateful. Taking things for granted at times. Losing the simplicity of life. Losing perspective.

My desire for 2009 is to make Jesus my best friend.

Praise

I give a shout of praise
Hallelujah !!!
The desire to praise too...given from on high
leading me to the path of victory
As i shout with abandon
Walls come tumbling down
Rejoice.
Jumping up and down.
Spinning around.
Expecting great victory and breakthroughs.
Hallelujah

Quiet

In the stillness of the night
As I lie awake, sleep eluding me
Memories came flooding me
As I recall the experiences that life had given me
Some bitter sweet, some painful, some heart warming, some regrets
All hidden in the deep recesses of my heart
Only the Lord knows and understood
Only the Lord I give permission to enter to heal
His presence ever comforting
His love unfailing
As I pour out my heart and desires to HIM
HE hears my cries and gathers it all in His loving hands
As I struggle to submit with obedience and trust
He gently soothe me with His love and bind up my wounded heart
Once again...
When life demands, disappoints and hurt
I turned to my Saviour whom I had trusted
Whom had delivered me time and time again
Tears He had collected in His bottle
Remembering me His beloved daughter
In quietness, trust and obedience
I wait upon the Lord, Who renews my strength
I shall rise up on eagles wings into the realm of peace
In the heavenlies places
Seated at my Abba's right hand, together in Christ

What does it mean to look to the left or right, not to the front all the time?

Reaching Out

I was in the house with Abba, blessed, contented and enjoying the communion...
Abba asked me to go out of the house. I refused and started listing my reasons for not wanting to.
I told Abba my plate is full. I don't need anymore things on my plate!
Well, Abba being the sovereign God, He eventually kicked me out of the house.
Kicked me out OK! Haiz
I was with nothing except for a rod and staff. Where are the clothes and food!??
hahahah Abba said that's not necessary as HE will provide.

As much as i didn't want to get out of my comfort zone, Abba did not leave me with much choice..
maybe HE knew i won't openly defy HIM when i know HIS desire clearly.
sigh...off i went...doing what i think i should do.
I took up a second ministry involved in caring for new believers. I took more deliberate efforts to attend to other's needs before my own. I learned to listen to ppl without wanting to shut off their problems.
........

mmm still waiting for the second vision to come to pass : )

Abba is setting me up for more blessings!!!