letter to me

halo!

decided to write to you a letter cos time flies and none of us know what will happen tomorrow. really want to let you know what i want you to know before i forget. as you know. i am a forgetful person. : )

looking back now. we only know each other for 2 years 9 months. a bit short but to our surprise, we act and know as if we have been friends for long.

TQ for bearing with me esp my talking nonsense attitude. you really make me think more with your profound thoughts or questions in times.

but also through you, i seen how loving our Father is. it's not by the messages that i had passed to you but through the persistency that our Father have. His helps and wisdoms really arrives on time. i can't see it much clearer except through your experiences. you are indeed very blessed and i am sure you know it.

honestly. i really don't know much about your background and past. sometimes, i'm really kepoh and want to ask. but many times, He reminded me that it's not important. what is important is that how you are faithfully seeking Him. something i should learn from you. at the end of the day, it is the process and results that matters. not the beginning or past.

i really think both of us are similar. although we are not identical, but we both have our fair share of stubbornness and problems in submission to Him. so, all this while our message from Him is almost like for each other.

elaine, i know that we both know that we are weak in flesh and still in the journey learning to follow Him. please do not give up in times. we can rest in Him when we are tired but we can't give up.

although our problems seem to be great, but He in us is greater than he who is in the world. since you have discover your problems and cause of stress. i really hope you will be able to find the 'rest day' in Him once again. what i see in Elaine Tan is a person that mature and never give up easily. another thing i have to learn from you. your passion to follow Him indeed a testimony and encouragement to me all these while.

i like to be told off by you in times cos i know you mean well for me and you know what is best for me. a great reminder in times of me being stuck in my own world of ignorance. thank again for being such a great sis to me.TQ for your honesty and trust and the friendship.

elaine, i truly believe what you are going through now will bring you a new level of breakthrough that will please and glorify Him. you are a blessing to people around you and you will be someone bigger in His Kingdom. He's not a person who put us in stagnant mode.

Jiayou! face it! you can do it! : )

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thank you sis. thank you for the letter. it will always be a reminder to me. very encouraging.

profound wisdom from a non-believer

you need to be stable before you can save a drowning person. imagine if you are barely floating. a struggling person will easily pull you down and drown you.

the knowledge you get from books are not always applicable in the working environment. in fact the things you learnt during the course of study is very applicable to life. eg the invigilator always will say: attempt the questions that you know first. skip the ones that you don't know. come back to them later after doing all the ones you know. translate to: in life there may be many struggles. not all problems can be solved at one point. do not focus on one issue that you neglect the rest of the important things in life. it is not worth it.

in work there may be many tasks and you need to pioritise what is important and do not be stressed out too much. and some problems may not have a solution immediately. i now understand the chinese parable 'when the boat reach the harbour it will straighten out naturally' i have observed. situation changes. people changes. what seems so difficult today may be resolved the next. or becomes simplier that it is managable. do not dwell on the problem. move on to do other things first.

when you least expected it, it comes. when you place little emphasis, no attention to it, it comes. when you struggle to seek it, it just don't happen. i have learnt to let nature takes it course.

i observed that my boss is always very calm and not stressed even by mistakes and obstacles. even if one method does not work, he'll calmly says try it. knowing it may not work. continue to persist but not to insist. solution comes. knowing that situation can change.

always maintain a healthy stress level in life. my question: isnt it not healthy to be stressed all the time? explanation. a person who exercises regularly has no problem doing a 10km. however, a person who never exercises, will have a hard time with 10km. it means, do not be lazy. need to be consistent to maintain. eg if you start to be comfortable in your work, learn something new. increase the stress level again. whenever you get comfortable with the tasks on hand, take on new challenges. continue to improve. do not be lazy.

wow. this person has changed so much since the last time i saw him 5 years ago. and all these learnt from observation and own reflections and thinking. amazing.

singapore dreaming

a singapore production a movie of singapore reality. everythings so familiar. how people behave. how people live their lifes. how relationships breakdown. how people value themselves. how people can be so blinded. so many HOWs....then it came the question WHY? why do they do what they did. why do they not realise their mistakes. why things happened the way it did. so many WHYs.

a woman who loses her indentity after marriage. focus and energy on the family. forgetting what she used to like or do. her world revolves around spouse and children. neglecting herself. and worse still! does not even realise it is all SO wrong. until something went wrong.

a girlfriend who spent her life savings to support her boyfriend's overseas education. wasting her youth and money on a sooo apparent loser boyfriend who only knows to run away when faced with challenges and blames the world for everything and refusing to accept responsibility.

a father who is chasing after the 5 Cs. cash. credit card. condo. car. country club membership. and finally met the 6th C. coffin. chasing after wind indeed.

a daughter who has low self esteem, insecure and always wanting to prove herself to gain approval from her parents who favoured the brother. almost ended her marriage in shambles because of unresolved past hurts and pain.

i hear it at my work place everyday. i witness it in the patients i work with. i see it happening in my own family. i see it happening with my friends. what's the solution then? .....

changed

for a while i thought the city has changed
for a while after i returned from melbourne,
i thought wow....its only been for a while but so
much has changed.
later did i realised that it is me that has changed.
God has opened up my eyes to see
opened up my heart to feel
gave me understanding and knowing
the city has not changed much
its me that God has changed
thank You lord
i pray to know the depth of Your love more each day