HE filled my heart with songs of deliverance....

this is a very beautiful song....

Praise the Lord
When you're up against a struggle
That shatters all your dreams
And your hope has been cruelly crushed
By Satan's manifesting scheme
And you feel the urge within you
To submit to earthly fears
Don't let the faith you're standing in, seem to disappear

Praise the Lord
He can work with those who praise Him,
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise,
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you that they drop powerless behind you
When you praise him

Now satan is a liar
And he wants to make us think
That we are paupers
When he knows himself
We're children of the King
So lift up the might shield of faith
For the battle has been won
We know that Jesus Christ has risen
So the work's already done

of recent, pastor has been preaching on praise and worship
then as i reflected...
last year, as i was going through a series of trials. ya i mean a difficult period of time.
i managed to 'survive' by hanging on to the above song.
this year, again when i wanted some answers, God filled me with this song

Still Sing
no need to wait for the sun to shine
no need to wait for the cloud to clear
i'll still sing
no need to wait for the sun to shine
no need to wait for the cloud to clear
i'll still sing
i'll praise You
You're for me
i'll praise You
Yes, You love me
i'll praise You
You are faithful
i'll praise You
You'll see me through

how on earth by praising HIM will make everything right?
i still don't know! after all that preaching : )
but i do know it works!!

You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
with songs of deliverence
whenever i am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say i am strong
In the strength of my Lord.....

best gift ever

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

this is our song. you know, usually couples have the 'our song'
this is daddy's and my song.
this song always hold special place in my heart.
this is the song which captivated my heart many years back.
the song which burned my heart and put tears in my eyes.
the song which changed my life forever.
the song which moved me to accept Jesus as my saviour.
i can vividly remember even after such a long time...
this song. but nothing of the sermon that the pastor had preached that day.
His great love drew me.
His great love gave me hope.
His great love restored my broken heart
His great love continues to change my life
from glory to glory

checking in with Jesus

recently went for a short retreat with Jesus.
alone with Him in a local hotel for 2 nights.
has some goals set out to acheive.
in the end, i think i indulged myself more than seeking God, which was my original plan.
nevertheless i had great rest and quiet.
smile. i actually wanted a miracle. a quick fix.
but as i departed, God reminded me i have to seek Him daily.
and continually seek Him for those answers that i desire.
He will surely show me. NO quick fix this time.
He wants me to live from blessing to blessing.
not a miracle to rescue me all the time.
there is something i need to learn. am still learning. but but...
no buts. just obey and see Me work.

be strong my child.
do not be afraid.
do not give up.
press on.
I am here with you.
trust me.
everything will be alright.

what stress did to me

its subtle. it grows unknowingly to me.well, maybe its denial, maybe i choose to ignore it. but i very innocently fell into its snare. work stress. family stress. adjustment stress. for a long period. many months. my appettite fluctuated. my ability to concentrate and alertness decreases. my body lethagic. no matter how much i sleep it always seems not enough. 8 hours a day is not sufficient to keep me energetic during the day. i start to get tired during mid day. after lunch my body seems to want to breakdown on me. i though i had bad digestive system. i thought maybe i had diabetics or liver or kidney failure. cos my body felt exhausted. feeling of 'breaking down'. then i tell myself. its not possible. i should be healthy. why am i feeling this way? i was extremely frustrated. trying to figure out the cause. finally i decided maybe i should get a comprehensive body check done. maybe God will heal me through doctors or maybe i needed to know i have a diagnosis. THEN i realised all these are actually stress induced symtoms! Thank God i have not gone for the check up for it cost over $300!!!! after much wrestling with dear Father, i have no choice but to submit all my cares unto Him as He commanded me to. IMMEDIATELY i became well. all those 'liver failure' 'kidney failure' symtoms i originally thought it was left me. lol i have learnt my lesson the hard way. but the process was a blessing for it taught me many lessons on healing and health.

ha several years ago i had symtoms like 'heart attack' i will suddenly get sharp pain in my chest and difficulty in breathing. that was stress too. and at last. the famous 'headache'. was very prone to that. sometimes have headache so bad that i have to pop two panadol and lie on the bed; any motion will cause me further agony. sometimes the pain so intense i thought my head will burst like a bubble. sounds like what a doctor would term as migrain. recently i had a colleague who fainted at work due to servere headache. the pain was so intense that she fainted in her room and was subsequently warded. I thank God for protecting and preserving me all these while. about three weeks ago i had a dream. in the dream i saw a hand touching my head. gently pressing the palm on my head and moving from left to right. then the palm touched a spot which was painful. and the palm stayed on that spot, massaging it. it felt so comfortable. in the dream i was also praying in tongues. also other things in the dream but cannot really recall. this dream is like God telling me he has healed my headaches. thank you daddy. i feel so so priviledged to be so loved by You.