Second chance?

one thing that really touches me about our Lord...
is his undying persistency and his passion in fixing broken things.
He loves ugly and imperfect things which the world despise and frown upon.
He loves restoring broken things which the world sees as useless.
And His finished work is much more glorious and beautiful than it was before!
One day a 19 year old girl asked me. She is a believer.
She said: do i deserve a second chance?
i nearly teared. but i refrained myself.
Ofcourse you do!! more than that. a third, a fourth, a fifth, infinity.
amongst other things, i said 'you can be angry with God, its ok'
really. was her immediate response
i can see her eyes lit up. all these while, she has been struggling
struggling to put up with a religious front and knowing she is falling so short
she felt condemned. and angry. angry with God for allow things to happen this way.
yet she cannot be angry with God because He is God.
God is good. if you can release even that anger to Him He'll turn things around
and make even your enemies be at peace with you.
i hate it when people put God into a box and fit Him into their description.
they have no idea how much damage it will do to hurting people.
no one can judge except for Jesus. and good news is He has not come to condemn you.
but to save you. isnt He wonderful!

compassion

when i see the people i love struggling in life, areas of lack
especially my own family. whom i have to face daily. i always have this though...
what is wrong with them. why are they so blinded. why do they allow themselves to be in this misery. why can't they accept Jesus into their lives and allow Jesus to work in them.
I am not Jesus! I cannot fill that emptiness in them. I cannot transform them.
really no one else can rescue them except by the love of Christ.
i hate it when they lean on me for their security, to be their companion. their counsellor. their source of love. their life!
go get a life!!! my mind screams. i feel so tried and drained from my work and i do just want to rest at home. then they come. demanding my attention, my time.
i cannot understand this behaviour. as i felt that i was independent and seldom 'trouble' people with my wants and wimps. if i can do it so can you! go get a life pls. i have my own life to lead.
me and God. you and God.
i am exhausted from giving. give me a break....i need to receive from Jesus OK.

then one saturday morning 5/5/07...
revealation.....
holy spirit prompted
"you are also like that but you have ME"
then i was brought to rememberance the 'old me'
then it suddenly struck me. i am not independent! i am dependent like any other people.
i can even be annoying to the point of being manipulative in the past
but now my strength is in the Lord. I depend on Him and look to Him instead of man.
when i am sick ...i turn to You for comfort
when i am in a trial...i put my trust in You
when i do not know what to do...i wait for Your answers
I am humbled. It is by His grace i am who i am now.
i have forgotten how helpless and hopeless i was in the past.
i am still helpless and hopeless but i have placed my hope and trust in the Lord.
i have the Lord. and He has graced me with the gift of faith.

a good leader brings people closer to God
have compassion on the lost and serve them
now i can understand why Jesus spend so much time on prayers.