evil box

evil box evil box
i am now sitting infront of it
it is so alluring
it seems harmless
but i spend more and more time on it
people around me loves it
makes it even more difficult for me to ignore it
it's ON in the bedroom, it's ON in the living room
indeed evil company corrupts good habits
aha trying to justify myself huh
O' Lord deliver me from temptations!

God's wife??

this story has been stucked to my mind..
ever since i heard it preached by Ps Nicole Connor
there was a little boy who went around barefooted
cos his family could not afford a pair of shoes
he was poor, his clothes was filthy, his feet covered with mud and dirt
one day, he came upon this shoe shop
he was staring at the window display at a pair of shoes
he looked at it wistfully....
a lady passed by, talked to him, brought him into the shop
took the shoes which he was admiring,
set him down on the chair,
the little boy was astonished and couldn't believe the act of compassion
the lady went and returned with a pail of water and a piece of cloth
she knelt down and gently wiped his feet clean
she then put on new socks and shoes for the boy and paid the bill
tears started to stream down his cheeks
finally he asked this kind hearted lady
'are you God's wife?'

i asked myself. how can i be a good wife?
i still 'miss the mark' sometimes, rather most of the time!
there are times i felt unworthy and guilty when i give in to desires
but God said. I have chosen you.
nothing. absolutely nothing is able to seperate you from the love of Jesus
i closed my eyes.
i saw myself as a little girl in a white dress, holding my Father's hand
then the scene changed.
now i am a mature adult, dressed in a beautiful white gown with Jesus
smile. a thought came. Jesus will never divorce me.

a reminder for myself.
whenever you feel guilt, you are doubting Jesus's finished work on the cross
and that is an insult to HIM!!

SIN City

updates for the past one week and two days i was back
lol what an irony....
Sin city
it does not represent Singapore
it literally means sin

the plane landed at Changi airport
i was greeted with a totally different environment that
i have gotten used to for the past two & half years
space is limited
everyone is rushing
there is little patience, love and grace everywhere i go
everyone behaved like a 'zoombie'
performing tasks without a purpose
almost everyone is in bondage to something
either false gods, lust, fame, relationships, money...
Singapore is a changed city
the two words SIN CITY kept flashing in my mind

Day one
I was shopping in Orchard rd in the afternoon
toward the evening i was so stressed that i have chest pain
but PTL it only lasted for a while

Day two
went to visit a friend's church
while waiting i was listening to Don Moen
'as we worship you'
as we worship you, let all the world come and see
how the mercy we've received from you
can set them free
as we worship you, let all this joy that fills our hearts
bring a hunger and a hope
to those who've strayed so far
as we bow in adoration and stand in reverent awe.....
as i listened, i wept, i prayed
i was crying for the sinners
i opened the bible
luke 10:2-3
2 Then He said to them: "The harvest truly is great,
but the laborers are few; therefore pray the Lord
of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest.
3 "Go your way; behold, I send you out as lambs among
wolves.
indeed i do feel like a lamb among wolves!

Day three
bought a new cabinet
did some unpacking and packing

Day four
10 boxes of stuff arrived from Melbourne
more unpacking and packing
had a terrible headache in the evening. stress again
it was so bad that i had to lay in bed and not move
toke two panadols. didnt help
dinner time. i forced myself to eat alittle. was feeling nausea
lay in bed
i had appointment with a bunch of friends in an hours' time
shucks. i felt too sick to go. but i really wanted to go.
i prayed. i laid hands on myself. i prayed in tongue
i rested for a while. i felt alittle better
i took a bath and miraculously i felt 'normal' after
my appetite and energy returned!
Jesus rocks ya!

Day five onwards...
CANNOT remember!

God is with me for sure
For i received favour wherever i go
Isaiah 62: Assurance of deliverance!!